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We were watching The Surreal Life and Gina said she didn't get how they could bond so much in only 12 days, and Cheryl and I said, "You know, like when you're a kid and you're in summer camp?" and Gina said she tried to go to camp when she was a kid but they kept telling her to stick to the path and she didn't get it because at home she could run wild barefoot through the woods and never had to stick to the path.

And I said, "The path has strayed from YOU."

(And there was the sound of crickets.)

I miss Kirsten.

(Mother told me never to stray from the path.

The path has strayed from you.)

Why are you in Tavie's head? 12:22 AM | shower me with attention

I made it. I made it. I made it.

My big plans for the weekend include: cleaning out the turtle tank, eating crackers, washing my hair, hating myself, perhaps working out, or perhaps deciding there's no point, eating some more crackers, and I'm sure there'll be some tv involved in there somewhere.

And sleeping.

Please take the crackers away.

Why are you in Tavie's head? 12:17 AM | shower me with attention

Thursday, March 23, 2006

I woke up at 3:30 am with a mysterious stomachache and sat up on the couch trying not to throw up. I finally fell asleep on the couch at 6, after calling some coworkers to let them know I'd be in late. (It was unthinkable to me that I not show up with J-Rock gone. I could not, not, not do that to Brando.)

I arrived at work at 11 and by noon I was so sick that I was swallowing gorge and felt cold and sweaty and on the verge of tears. I couldn't do it. I tidied up what I could and apologized a lot and then I went home and slept.

Gina told me Cheryl had been nursing something similar for a couple days. I didn't realize that, I knew she didn't feel well but not that it was a stomach thing. So I probably caught a mild bug from her. I was glad to hear that because I thought I was getting an ulcer from not being able to process stress, or was sick from staring at the computer for too many hours. Brando swapped my crappy CRT monitor with J-Rock's LCD last night but it didn't help.

I'm feeling a bit better now, sour in the stomach, but my worst symptom is the monstrous headache I have because my stomach couldn't handle any coffee today. My caffeine withdrawal is fierce and painful. I took some ibuprofen and flat ginger ale and hopefully I'll wake up fresh and early and get to work and get everything done that I couldn't do today.

JCSuperstar*, who helps me with some of my tasks, assured me he'd do what he could when I had to go. They're good people. I feel really bad that I had to leave them in the lurch. I feel defeated. It was unthinkable to me that I'd get sick while J-Rock was gone.

*Once again, nicknames have been chosen to protect the innocent.

Why are you in Tavie's head? 8:05 PM | shower me with attention

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

I'm too beat. I'm not gonna make it. I caught a glimpse of myself as I passed a window on my way home and I just look whipped.

Two more days
Two more days
Two more days
Two more days

Why are you in Tavie's head? 10:42 PM | shower me with attention

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Today my boss's boss laid a yellow rose (how'd she know?) on my desk and said "Happy spring!"

40 degrees or not, she's right. Time to dust off my Secret Garden soundtrack...

I say begone ye howlin' gales
Be off ye frosty morns
All ye solid streams begin to thaw
Melt, ye waterfalls
Fall, ye frozen winter walls
See, see now it's startin'...

Why are you in Tavie's head? 9:02 PM | shower me with attention

Monday, March 20, 2006

You have NOT LIVED until you have heard Gina singing both parts of "Endless Love" to the Comcast Karaoke On Demand.

Oh my god her Diana Ross is so amazing. I died.

Why are you in Tavie's head? 9:54 PM | shower me with attention

I've developed a twitch under my left eye.

That said, today wasn't so bad.

Why are you in Tavie's head? 8:33 PM | shower me with attention

Sunday, March 19, 2006

Heterosexual lifemate says I look like a '50's housewife today because I'm sitting on the couch in capri pants with a scarf in my hair, knitting.

Why are you in Tavie's head? 1:18 PM | shower me with attention