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Pouts.

Dave, in stage whisper: Your paparazzi's really crappy!
Cheryl, struggling to work the camera: HEY!!!!!

Why are you in Tavie's head? 10:22 PM | shower me with attention

Friday, March 03, 2006

I was able to all asleep tonight with help from the internet, specifically this Wikipedia page. In trying to wrap my head around the idea of compassionate loving-kindness for all sentient beings, I was able to fall asleep. I even continued trying to love all humankind on the PATH train this morning. (I was very, very sleepy this morning, which helped.)

Metta meditation seems very hard to me, but just the attempt exhausted my brain and made the bad thoughts go away.

It's hard not to like the idea, anyway:

The six stages of mett? bh?van? are cultivating loving-kindness towards:

Yourself
A good friend
A 'neutral' person
A difficult person
All four
and then gradually the entire universe

It's really beautiful, right?

Wishing: In gladness and in safety,
May all beings be at ease.
Whatever living beings there may be;
Whether they are weak or strong, omitting none,
The great or the mighty, medium, short or small,
The seen and the unseen,
Those living near and far away,
Those born and to-be-born,
May all beings be at ease!

I will read more about this.

Why are you in Tavie's head? 11:38 PM | shower me with attention

A sign I'm thinking about sleep too much: last night I dreamed I was watching a trailer for a movie. The movie starred Robert Downey Jr, but his voice sounded different. British, but not like in Chaplin. Anyway. The voice-over of the movie talked about how this guy was on a quest, that he was going to save the human race. And it cut to a supermarket where exhausted-looking people were shoving Rolaids into their mouths by the handful and drooling and droopy-mouthed, and Robert Downey Jr said, "Human life expectancy wasn't always 35-40... we didn't always have insomnia! I'm going to find the answer!"

The premise of the movie was that, in the future, no one can sleep, and so we just stay awake for 35-40 years and then die. Yes, apparently, instead of dying after a few days (which is what happens in real life), humans are able to survive for decades without sleep, but it gives them rather a sour stomach and makes them sad and drooly.

But Robert Downey Jr will save us all from this terrible fate.

Anyway, I really wanted to see the movie and was rather disappointed that it turned out to be a dream. I hope he does find the secret so falling asleep, and shares it with the human race...

Why are you in Tavie's head? 12:07 AM | shower me with attention

There must be a knack to this falling-asleep-when-you're-tired thing that I'm JUST NOT GETTING. I think I'm putting too much pressure on myself. I should just give up, right? That's the trick?

Is that the trick?

WHAT'S THE TRICK???

Why are you in Tavie's head? 12:03 AM | shower me with attention

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

OK OK OK I have to post it here, this is my blog so it's for me and I need this preserved forever.

My single favourite thing said during the trip:

"Tave's family."

He said it twice.

It melted my heart.

Now, onto other things, such as, I haven't had more than 5 hours sleep in the past 4 nights, and I am a person who needs way more than 5 hours sleep.

So-- nitwit, oddment, blubber, tweak! -- I am turning out the light right now.

Watch me go! Wish me luck! Holy hay-zeus do I need some goddamn sleep!

Oh, one more thing: I think that, had she not died a decade ago, today would have been my Grandma Jean's 100th birthday.

Why are you in Tavie's head? 11:20 PM | shower me with attention

I guess I'd better blog because I'm getting threats, now. I feel like I've been talking about L.A. nonstop. It was really a wonderful trip. The delights (KITH shows! Warm weather! Old friends! New friends!) more than outscored the bad (Bad driving directions*, little sleep, eating things that are no good for me-- actually, I don't know whether that falls into the "good" or "bad" category...)

The best thing about the trip was quality time with my goils, my roommates,Gina and Cheryl. That's what most of my trip photos are of.

The next best thing was, of course, the shows. The shows were amazing. I wrote about them already here on the newsgroup. They're ready to tour again.

The other next best thing was the Kids themselves, getting to spend time with them, being warmly welcomed by them, being made to feel special and appreciated. There were a million little moments I won't describe here, but that I'll treasure just for-freaking-ever. I never get tired of those guys. Dave, Crissy and Scott in particularly made me feel like a friend. (I will say this: Crissy invited me and the Goils to a rehearsal of her show and it was fucking hilarious, and chock full of showtunes. It was just about perfect, and my new mission is to get them to perform it in New York.)

Yay for a great, great, trip.

*Driving was SCARY, and I don't even drive. Of all the people who gave us directions, the only person who gave us directions that DIDN'T GET US LOST was Crissy.

Why are you in Tavie's head? 7:39 PM | shower me with attention

Oh no. I can't sleep. I am SO TIRED and I can't sleep. Not again with this. Why?

Why are you in Tavie's head? 12:12 AM | shower me with attention

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Go here and watch the music video Mon Capitan's band made. It's really cool.

I'm such a tease, I swear I'll post about the KITH weekend. I'm still trying to catch up. So many emails.

Why are you in Tavie's head? 8:46 PM | shower me with attention

Monday, February 27, 2006

EEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

More later. This Starbuck's charges for internet. :P

Why are you in Tavie's head? 2:29 PM | shower me with attention