i'm starting to wonder if i am manic-depressive. for much of the past week, i have wished that i could just go to sleep and never wake up again. i have been paranoid, sad and regretful.

but i've also had a few moments where i feel boomtastic...i bought pants and have been wearing makeup every day. i also actually asked my longtime crush out for dinner and gave him my email address. he hasn't written back but even if he doesn't, i can't believe i even had the balls. my reaction if he doesn't write back will depend on my mood that night. i'll either shrug it off or want to die.

i should talk to my therapist about this paradox.

a bad case of verbal diarrhea from Cheryl 18:49