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  • Saturday, September 13, 2003
    Texas Steph is coming for a visit! It should be a lot of fun! She is going to be job hunting, but, I'm sure there will be lots of time for walking the streets, UCB and hanging about talking. Yay!

    Tavie seemed a little upset about my posting the link to the Hyatt Regency disaster. I didn't mean to upset her. I just read the link and I was thinking about the two major bad things that happened during my life and how they were almost 20 years apart.

    Thank Scott, there is spell check!
    Thursday, September 11, 2003
    http://www.uoguelph.ca/~ajenney/webpage.htm
    pictures from the Hyatt

    I spent part of the evening thinking about when the skywalks collapsed in KC when I was seventeen. I was on my way to the Lake with a group of friends and we were in three cars that were following each other. We were laughing and teasing each other and making faces out the windows to each other and singing songs really loud, knowing that the other cars in the group were singing the same song and then the news broke in that the skywalks had collapsed during a party and that a lot of people had died. It took the wind out of all of us and the rest of the drive was in silence. When we arrived at the lake, we all just sat around wondering about the poor people back home that were injured or had died, the news wasn't the same then as it is now and things were not shown as they were happening in most cases and there were no cable news outlets even if the cabin would have had cable at that time. The next day the papers were full of horrible pictures and stories.
    I have never forgotten about it, sometimes when I am home and I'm near that hotel I think about how people had died there, but, our lives had gone on and the hotel had repaired the damage and reopened. I remember how the fire and policemen had to have therapy because of the things they had seen and things they had to do to save people, like amputate legs. Not trying to be graphic. It's just things that I remember.

    I know that there are many a nosy cat in the world. I also know that a lot of cats stay hidden for the most part and only show up when absolutely necessary. I have to wonder why both of my cats had to be as nosy as can be. I can hardly make a move without them following me. My only relief from them comes when Tavie and erin are here. They stick their heads into my soda, my cereal bowl, my salad....not to eat what is there, but, just to check it out. When I wash the dishes they both have to be on the drainboard watching me. They both have to be in the computer room as close to me as they can get and they need to watch T.V. and sleep with me. When I go to the bathroom I open the door to see them both sitting there.
    They must be so bored.

    I understand what Tavie is talking about when she says it is bruise pressing. I was going to try to stay away from to much of that myself. Unfortunatly the media wants to do more then help us press our bruises, they want to help us rip the wounds wide open. I wasn't trying to see things that would bring it all screaming to the top of my brain, I really tried a lot of trying to talk myself into keeping it under the healing skin. The other night I was mindlessly flipping through the channels and there the Towers were, burning and falling to the ground, I flipped away from that and hit another station that was interviewing survivors and I actually stopped, I told myself not to do it, but I couldn't seem to stop myself, I felt so bad for them. I wanted to reach through my TV and comfort them.
    This morning I was so tired from this cold that I have that I could not get moving and ended up leaving the house at exactly 8:46 a.m. to the sound of the sirens wailing into the beautiful blue sky, then of course my radio was on the newstation so I changed it and just as I was driving past the skyline one of the U2 songs from the CD that I had refused to listen to for well over a year came on and that was the end of it, I just lost it and started bawling.
    After that, I have managed to keep myself together other then a few bouts of tears, so I guess that I am doing okay.
    Monday, September 08, 2003
    It was nice that we had a hotel room right where the comic con was. I really needed the breaks that I could take by going up to the room. I just feel like it would have been so much more fun. I enjoyed visiting with Nicole and Tara, but, I felt crappy the whole time and felt like I was whining a lot. Also, we did not go walking in DC in the evening, which I would have loved to have done on such a beautiful night, but, couldn't as I could barely stand walking to the restraunt a few blocks away.
    I am happy that Nicole has invited us back to stay with her so we can have a chance at a good wander around. Erin was busy with convention type stuff anyway and as Tavie, Tara and of course Nicole (how lives there) said, they have been to DC many times. I look forward to going back.
    I bought some fun stuff and a couple of cool prints that I can't wait to frame.

    Colds and headaches can bite me.