Okay...the news is bad so I am going to stop watching so much, I'll stay informed but no more newsradio going all day and T.V. news at night. Just smaller doses. I am going to go out of this house more, to start I am going to the Pocanos this weekend ...I had a huge panic attack today and decide I could not go ...could NOT GO!!! Can't leave, what if something really bad happens...what if it does? I can't change it, I must go...I will enjoy it, it will be beautiful. I am going to go to my class next week. I am going to straighten out my life for my own sake. Pay my bills on time...clean up my check book...clean my house...paint my stupid dining room...lose weight. That's it...I was falling apart before it happened, and then slid even more, but enough is enough...