alright! alright! i'm sorry i haven't blogged in a while...please don't beat me, miss tavie!! i'll try to be a good girl from now on!

it's been ages and nothing huge has happened but a few little things are going on. i got a new hospital job that will actually pay the rent, and i've put in my notice at the old one (which i was doing part time for a while). so that's a load off my mind and i've been much happier.

a strange thing happened on myspace ("no!" you say?). my first boyfriend from :::mumble:::-teen years ago found me (by doing a search with the name of our high school) and emailed me. the even stranger thing is we've KEPT exchanging emails. it's put me in a strange mindset, like i'm learning things about a person i really shouldn't know about. wasn't he supposed to just drop off the face of the earth? i was never supposed to know what he looks like now, that he was once engaged, etc. the funny thing is, if i never knew him before (and if he lived closer), he's the kind of guy i would be interested in...FREAKY!! if it ever gets to the point where he wants to meet again, i think that would push me over the edge of sanity.

Big D has hinted at a visit once again. we had a nice talk tonight, nicer than any in a long while...effortless, funny. i'd really love a visit from him but wouldn't be crushed if it didn't happen. it's just now, he's said he wants to visit so many times since i've moved here and hasn't bothered, i've learned that i'll only believe it when he's at my front door.

on other guy-related things, i had a "date" that wasn't a date, there's an adorable guy at work, and i have my usual long-standing crush on our neighbor.

aren't i getting a little old for this??

a bad case of verbal diarrhea from Cheryl 21:17