this isn't actually going out to you but i need to get something off my chest. i hate the way things ended between us. i hate that you probably think i'm a bitch for finally snapping even though i believe i had every right to; i'm soooo not a bitch. but it is very frustrating to have someone in your life who *says* they want to see you but do not *act* like they do, who state things like "i'll be in NH most weekends" which do not feel particularly informative but more preemptive, like "don't expect time with me". this is especially hurtful after a conversation where i tell you that you hurt me and you apologize and say you'll make it up to me.

god, i hate how i sound. whiny and whatnot. pardon me, i'm having a weak moment.

why do i care if you don't want to spend time with me or call me or anything me? what makes you so truly special when people are supposedly dropping out of your life like flies? we really had no future anyway so what am i mourning?

you said "don't think i'm a dick" and i said you weren't...i lied.

a bad case of verbal diarrhea from Cheryl 17:34