i've been feeling everything so intensely lately, like an exposed nerve. my theory is that i'm simply mourning the loss of the things i thought i had in my life here that i never really did, but always thought were possible. now that i'm moving, it's like finally putting a period at the end of these sentences. there are no more "maybe"'s. the finality feels brutal to me right now.

i just wrote a "goodbye" email to mr. man. we've barely been dating, especially lately, but i'm feeling it like a full-fledged breakup. i'm sure it won't take me quite as long comparably to get over it but for the time being i feel like an idiot.

a bad case of verbal diarrhea from Cheryl 21:21