for as long as i can remember, i've been the sort to not post, blog, email, text msg or anything unless i either had something really important to report or in response to someone else despite having the best role models in my friends who post anything and everything that happens to them or comes to their minds (which i love and admire). but i tend to start typing and then think "no that sounds stupid, no one cares".

now i realize that *i* care and the fear that i'll feel like a jackass later should not preclude me from stating how i feel at any given moment. my friends would rather hear drivel from me than nothing at all.

bring on the drivel


today i asked for letters of recommendation from a couple of higher-ups at work. i've never been in the position where i needed to ask before and it's a rather strange situation for me. it's just not in my personality to ask someone to put in writing how great they think i am. i have never and would never think this of anyone else who has done this (and apparently everyone else has) but i felt i was giving off an air of conceit in doing so. however, the fact that neither of the people i approached hesitated even one second in pledging to write a letter for me made me feel sooo much better.

now if i could just get down to getting that resume updated...

i feel strange tonight. i'm just getting over a panic attack where i assumed i had locked myself out of a friend's house (since i've done it before) and threw a complete hissy fit for a considerable amount of time before realizing i had the house key on me the whole time.

but really, i'm not this much of a spaz *all* the time...no, really.

a bad case of verbal diarrhea from Cheryl 11:09