i probably just futzed up my blog...i truly don't know what i am doing.

i'm getting kinda antzy in this hurry-up-and-wait period before i move. i'm feeling a little lonely to tell you the truth. it's too late to go out and make new friends seeing as how i'll be leaving soon and some of the friends i do have have started the "withdrawal" thing. especially one person in particular. he won't admit it but i believe it has a lot to do with my leaving and the fact that he doesn't want to know me more and not have me around after a while. he tells me it's not me but i haven't seen him in 2 months, he doesn't call me like he used to and he can't even give me the most common courtesies (like calling when he can't keep tentative plans). if i wasn't moving and he wasn't a really cool guy i'd write him off as a jackass and move on.; but i'm finding that difficult to do.

i have so much to do...update my resume (update! update!), apply to a few home-base transcription services (which is what i'd really like to do for now until i know what i want to be when i grow up) and badger gina to find me temp (slut!) roomy (ies). i can't believe how much i am truly excited to do this and yet completely scared out of my wits at the same time.

a bad case of verbal diarrhea from Cheryl 19:42