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in case you can't tell, i've had a few beers tonight and i should have learned by now not to drink while i'm going through this crap. i'm alone and i feel i'll be alone for the rest of my life. i desperately need my friends. they are the only people who keep me grounded and sane. even my family doesn't do that for me. soon i'll be able to "unload" on them and i'll either get objective advice or be proven to be completely right *g*
a bad case of verbal diarrhea from Cheryl 02:06
why do i only seem to blog when i feel like shit? i put a note on my work crush's car inviting him to a halloween party. no email, no call. nothing.
why do i have to be so hypersensitive to everything? i'm sure i'm pissing people off by my inclination to be put off by the slightest remark but i can't help it. if i feel unwanted or unappreciated, i can't help but withdraw.
i got hit on yesterday by this old guy who i'm not even interested in. why does it have to be the ones you like don't like you and the ones who like you you don't like? i'm getting pretty sick of it. i'm also getting sick of half the people in my life telling me to "put myself out there" and the other half saying "if you stop trying, you'll find someone". i've been "not trying" for 30+ years and it hasn't worked yet and i really don't want to continue dating guys simply because they asked me out.
a bad case of verbal diarrhea from Cheryl 02:01
Tuesday, October 28, 2003
i just noticed that the guys i have recently been attracted to have also shared a name with one of the kids in the hall...coincidence?
no email : (
a bad case of verbal diarrhea from Cheryl 17:11