i had words with barbara tonight. i know we are both on the emotional edge but she really cannot let anything slip past without beating it to the ground. she has always been like that but i had just told her how fragile i felt and how much i felt like a fuck up, despite an "emergency" appointment with my therapist and then she has to berate me for 15 minutes over something stupid. i wanted to leave but i knew i shouldn't.

i'm here at kristin's and i am doing what i should...emotionally, i am nearly gone and much of the time i wish i was physically gone. i have gotten too tired.

a bad case of verbal diarrhea from Cheryl 00:37