So we all seem to have the blues...
I spent the weekend at a cabin on a lake, someting I love to do more then almost anything. Tried to relax, tried to stare at the water and surrounding woods and think happy thoughts. Every time I went in to pee or eat or get something to drink I would stop at the T.V....I would say to myself that if it was regular programming then everything is okay...then I would hold my breath until I clicked the T.V. on and it would show me that everything was well...sigh of relief, outsided I go...try to push away all bad thoughts, try to relax. I'm glad I went away, even with my "Doomsday Sister" thoughts working overtime I think it did some good.
Doomsday Sisters is what my siblings and I call my mom and my aunt when they get on the phone and go on and on about gloom and despair. This has been since I was young. I would hate to have to hear their conversations now. I tried to call my parents for a bit of comfort a couple of weeks ago and instead had a long talk with my Doomsday Sister and I was sorry I called.